little bitty girl

December 24, 2005
We finally picked up our rings. Oh, that Stefan and I, we sure like to live by the ants in our pants. Talk about stressful. My ring is absolutely beautiful and much larger than we anticipated. I keep thinking people are going to think it's fake or try to rob me. We both can't stop looking at it on the street. We go home and we both put our rings on. I love the fact that they are both so different from each other, they're so uniquely a part of ourselves and yet it symbolizes our unity.

I like the fact that I did not go for a solitaire engagement ring and a wedding ring. It's just a thick band because I figured I wear rings like that all the time and it had to be comfortable. Plus, there was no need for an engagement ring since we were eloping. It really was a very personal choice and it made sense for me. A friend told me once, that in her culture, a lot of people don't wear their engagement rings on the ring finger once they are married. When I asked why, she said it's because a solitaire is a broken circle and a marriage should remain unbroken. Funny, but now that I think about it it just gives my choice more significance to me as my ring is a really solid, unbroken ring.

I wear my ring all night long to get used to wearing a ring all the time. I can feel Stefan trying to get a better look at it while I am sleeping. It's quite comfortable. He said the words," Wife..." this morning. WE-IRD!

January 3, 2005
Five more days and we are outta here. It feels more surreal than ever. Stefan thinks we're going to get stopped at the airport because I am carrying a small pharmacy with me. I don't like taking chances especially in places that don't sell the same drugs. I know nothing is going to happen but why not be on the precautious side, I say?

We're so yin and yang with our personalities.

Stef is freaking out over our vows. We're supposed to write our own. He thinks I've already done mine but I think I am just going to fly by the seat of my pants like I always do when it come to public speaking. I want him to promise that he will do my laundry for the rest of my life. How do I make that happen?

January 5, 2005
Last day to do all the errands. I feel a strange calm settle over me.

I went to see Richard (AGAIN) because we needed to get the appraisel for insurance. In case we lose the rings (heaven forbid) when we're there. I cannot emphasize what a trememdous person he is. So kind and calm with a great sense of humour. He's been so accomodating to all our indecisiveness throughout this whole process. If anyone is looking for a great jewelry designer, he's the one.

All this not telling people is giving me an ulcer. It's hard to keep up with the lies. I know my parents will be fine when they find out. Heck! My dad will just be so bloody happy that his little baby girl is no longer "living in sin." I personally think Stef should at least tell his parents that he's going on vacation because now he's gonna get in double shit. Not saying he's going away and then eloping on top of it. At least the shit won't be on me. Or will it be?

hmmmmm......

January 8, 2005
It's 2:30 in the morning and I am FREAKING OUT!! We need to be at the airport in about an hour. It's REALLY HAPPENING!