little bitty girl

I am sitting on the couch with a very massive headache. Why? I seem to be suffering from buyinghouseitis. Symptoms of this disease may include migraines, upset stomach, nausea, diarrhea, loss of vision, general dizziness, shortness of breathe, propensity to drink. Yes, it really is that dire.

The problem with me is that I have this terrible habit of not being able to just live in the moment. I am always on to the next thing. So this weekend, in a moment of midnight restlessness (still am not used to Stef being away) I decided to figure out how long it would take to pay our mortgage, how much interest we would be paying through out the years and what we would want to have in order to retire. How do people live with SO much debt?

It's mind boggling that this is an experience that we all have to go through at some point. But seriously, the reassurance that almost everyone else is in the same boat is not very comforting at all. If anything, it's put off my shopping mojo.

I am off to drown my sorrows with some wine and cold shrimp rolls...